As a believer in the Lord Jesus Christ, the key to life is to know that you can do nothing of yourself. It is when you give up that Jesus can step in. Anytime you decide that you can do whateveris necessary yourself, you deny His love and His grace. Jesus freely gave His life for yours. This means that you do not have to work to get your salvation, your healing, your deliverance your prosperity. He loves to give you good gifts. Stop beating yourself up and just give up and give in to His love. Your natural father died, but your spiritual father is life everlasting. From one L. to another El, let El Shaddai easily change your life and your desires. It is so easy. Just trust Him.