Rap-Up.com || Nicole Scherzinger Exposes Pussycat Dolls, Bulimia Battle on ‘Behind the Music’

Nicole Scherzinger revealed her innermost demons and struggles to find success and self-love on VH1’s “Behind the Music,” which aired last night.

In 2001, the Hawaii native auditioned for the teen television show “Popstars,” which led to her landing a spot in girl group Eden’s Crush. She then auditioned for possibly her most famous role, as frontwoman for the all-girl pop group the Pussycat Dolls. Despite yearning for a chance as a solo singer (She even turned down a spot in the Black Eyed Peas at one point), Nicole took the PCD gig in hopes it would open solo opportunities down the line. She was right. The gorgeous singer and dancer quickly became the sultry group’s star, much to the chagrin of the other members. Multi-platinum success and worldwide fans soon followed as songs like “Don’t Cha” and “Buttons” scorched the charts.

Under that happy smile, Nicole hid a deep secret of insecurity and self-loathing. For the first time, she shared with “Behind the Music” that she had suffered with bulimia for years. “I just hated myself. I was in a group but I never felt so alone in my life,” she said. “I never did drugs, but hurting myself was my addiction. The music is what saved me. That’s the only thing I can trust.”

Nicole’s health issues coupled with turmoil within the Pussycat Dolls led to the eventual collapse of the group. When 2009’s “Jai Ho!” was released, with Nicole receiving a separate billing than the rest of the Dolls, the remainder of the members quit the group. Nicole revealed that she was always the leader of PCD. In fact, she claimed “95%” of the PCD catalogue was performed by her and there were even full albums completed without the rest of the group involved.

After all of the drama, Nicole has finally found the success she always wanted. Her 2011 solo debut Killer Love marked a personal milestone for her and she has also branched out into other areas of entertainment like “Dancing With the Stars” and “The X Factor.” Her personal life has never been better either. Nicole has since found her prince charming in race car driver Lewis Hamilton and is truly living her fairy tale.

Watch the full episode of “Behind the Music” below.

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40 Comments

weirdaly
October 8th, 2012 at 6:24 am
… lame attention whore… same old stories these days… sigh

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Jesper Reply:
October 8th, 2012 at 6:31 am
@weirdaly, I bet you never followed her career and I bet you didn’t even watched the whole video, don’tcall someone out as attention wh*re when you are not perfect yourself either…

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Dro Reply:
October 9th, 2012 at 5:13 am
@Jesper, Why didn’t she give Melody Thornton her props tho? She forgets that Melody was the only other girl brought on based soley on her vocal abilities. In her quest to be #1 Nicole stepped all over Melody. Listen to what she said. She never had a team mentality about that group. Whether she did most of the work or not you weren’t the only one on stage and you weren’t the only one known by the fans.

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Dez
October 8th, 2012 at 6:46 am
She didn’t reveal anything new. We knew she was the lead singer. But do anybody else recognize the obvious shady business. She recorded the album without them. The girls wanted to sing, but her and the people behind the group wouldn’t let them. They hoed them them girls and Nicole did anything to become successful even by being a snake and a back stabber. Her failed solo career is nothing but Karma.

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M$$ Reply:
October 8th, 2012 at 7:06 am
@Dez, COSIGN!

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I Told You Karruche Would Never Be Rihanna Reply:
October 8th, 2012 at 12:01 pm
@Dez,

AND HOW IS SHE A SNAKE AND BACKSTABBER? SHE DID ALL THE WORK, AND WROTE AND SANG 95% OF THE SONGS. The other girls were just backup dancers. They couldn’t sing because if they could, Interscope would have made them lead. Nicole had the sexy appeal and talent needed to push that group to the next level. And no one “hoed them girls.” They were hoes before they signed the record deal. They all had been dancing in the PCD review in Vegas long before they were even approached to be a singing group.

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cOmeATMEbRO Reply:
October 8th, 2012 at 8:32 pm
@I Told You Karruche Would Never Be Rihanna,

“SHE DID ALL THE WORK, AND WROTE AND SANG 95% OF THE SONGS” – So? Beyonce did some writing for DC, does that make her better then everybody else in the group? No. T-Boz did some writing for TLC, does that make her better then everybody else in the group? No. Her “writing” had nothing to do with it, because “PCD” was still presented as a GROUP.

“They couldn’t sing because if they could, Interscope would have made them lead” – Your Right,the other girls couldn’t sing, that’s why each girl had a solo song on the 2nd album -.-

“Nicole had the sexy appeal and talent needed to push that group to the next level.” – Right, Nicole had it all. she took them to the next level on the 2nd album, that’s why it didn’t do as well. -.-

“They all had been dancing in the PCD review in Vegas long before they were even approached to be a singing group.” – So because they dance, that makes them “hoes”? If it wasn’t for them being “dancers” for the “PCD” brand then the group would have never started. Think before you speak.

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I Told You Karruche Would Never Be Rihanna Reply:
October 9th, 2012 at 12:28 pm
@cOmeATMEbRO,

Who said she was better than anyone? I surely didn’t. Til this day no one knows the others’ names. We only know Nicole and Melody, because Melody would sing sometime. What I said was true though – they were backup dancers and none of them had any professional music experience prior to the group, except for Nicole. So the point is, Nicole is not a backstabber or a snake… and TLC is on a whole different level. They all contributed and had a more equal playin field that most girl groups, plus they were bomb!!!

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Bella Reply:
October 11th, 2012 at 7:17 pm
@I Told You Karruche Would Never Be Rihanna,
Finally!! Someone is making sense

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Maris
October 8th, 2012 at 6:47 am
^ You better SHUT THE FUCK UP !!!

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Melissa
October 8th, 2012 at 6:48 am
She inspires me to stop hurting myself. This is very touching story. I didnt care for her since media made her look like a B*tch but now I can’t wait for new music. I feel so connected to her.

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Mentamir Reply:
October 8th, 2012 at 8:02 am
@Melissa, mission accomplished.

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chris
October 8th, 2012 at 6:49 am
aww she was amazing, love her

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Chaystic.
October 8th, 2012 at 6:52 am
@weirdaly Eat my shit.

@Dez You can have my shit and my piss too.

Nicole is flawless. These c*nts cant deal with that.

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Sara
October 8th, 2012 at 6:53 am
She was f*cking honest. I love her so much now.

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MusicLover
October 8th, 2012 at 6:56 am
Nicole was great. She was trending because of this. Finally people can stop blaming her for sh*ts

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key
October 8th, 2012 at 7:13 am
lol

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valerie
October 8th, 2012 at 7:15 am
yes you were the one singing, CUZ U DIDNT LET OTHER GIRLS SING!
YES WE WANT THE DOLLS, NOT U

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Chaystic. Reply:
October 8th, 2012 at 7:26 am
@valerie, BITCH. You didnt have that much power and other than Mel, other dolls can sing for shit.

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Chaystic. Reply:
October 8th, 2012 at 7:27 am
@valerie, I meant She didnt have much say or banned others from singing.

Come to mama and get my shit.

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Thecool
October 8th, 2012 at 7:34 am
She did what she was hired to do which was sing

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Chaystic. Reply:
October 8th, 2012 at 7:44 am
@Thecool, finally! Someone with a brain!

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deelee
October 8th, 2012 at 7:58 am
how is she still famous? lol def a b list celebrity

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Chaystic. Reply:
October 8th, 2012 at 8:15 am
@deelee, Come and lick my ass please. I just had a shit and your mouth is already filthy.

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Mentamir
October 8th, 2012 at 8:07 am
It was naive of her to think that the other members of the Pussycat Dolls wouldn’t mind her being mentioned individually on the Jai Ho! single. You have to co-operate.

I feel like I’ve heard this story one time too many to believe all of it (Demi Lovato, anyone?). How come all of these celebrities battle diseases that most people either die or don’t really recover from, yet they manage to deal with it for a couple of years and then get back on their feet. I believe in hard work, but I also believe that people are not superhumans. Every person struggles, especially when you’re in an industry as demanding as the music industry, but this ongoing pity party is played-out. Don’t use something as serious as Bulimia for recognition.

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Mike Reply:
October 9th, 2012 at 8:29 am
@Mentamir, I don’t believe there using their issues for recognition. Mental illnesses like this are more prevalent than we think, and there are plenty of ppl. Like Demi and Nicole who put on this mask and function despite having these issues. Everyone deals and responds to mental illnesses differently. Just because it didn’t turn out the way you wanted or think it should be, doesn’t mean that person didn’t suffer.

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Shutterbug
October 8th, 2012 at 9:06 am
And when is Killer Love being released in AMERICA again?!

I can understand Rita Ora’s hesitance…but Nicole’s an AMERICAN. There oughta be a law saying that American artists need to release their material in America either at the same time or before they do in other countries…or else they LOSE THEIR CITIZENSHIP.

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Sharp Tongue
October 8th, 2012 at 9:43 am
In my opinion Melody can actually sing. And the “music industry” is full of shit.

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Chaystic. Reply:
October 8th, 2012 at 9:58 am
@Sharp Tongue, I love Mel, but where is she now? No where.

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cOmeATMEbRO Reply:
October 8th, 2012 at 1:15 pm
@Chaystic., Actually Mel cameout with a mixtape this year and got nothing but good reviews.

“Rap-Up” even did a post about it.

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infamous
October 8th, 2012 at 10:22 am
I just love this woman and wish her the best. I will always support her!

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Ewan
October 8th, 2012 at 11:33 am
She is so damn gorgeous, but she’s not really saying anything we didn’t know. Melody can sing, but she’s no Nicole. As for those other bitches….welp.

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cOmeATMEbRO
October 8th, 2012 at 1:10 pm
I can’t lie, when PCD 1st came out I was in love with Nicole. Everything about her I loved. But after the “Buttons” music
video I started to fall for the other dolls more. And I think that was the downfall of “PCD”. Yes people loved Nicole, but
people also loved the other dolls just as more.

When all of the “Doll Domination” album got leaked onto the internet before it’s release date, the fans saw that it was just
another “Nicole” album, and people lost all interest in “PCD”.

Almost every member of “PCD” called Nicole a “diva”. They talked about how she would have her own dressing room, and
tour bus (while the others had to share), and how she would even choose how much camera time the other girls got.

And people always joke about Nicole being the only singer in the “group”, but let’s be real here. Those other girls gave
Nicole “personality” because without them, Nicole is BORING as hell! She’s just a pretty face, there’s no “excitement” about
her as a “solo” artist..

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responder
October 8th, 2012 at 2:43 pm
Kharma…all her self esteem issues and self harming/bullimia…brought about by the way she treats others..

There is no way to justify being apart of a instrumented group where people were cast and then not giving anyone else a chance to do anything..its bitchy to behave in such a way….its greedy and a sign that u fear just how talented the others may be…a great player makes their team better, allows their team to shine…and is happy when other team/band mates do shine….so letting some of the other girls collaborate on 1 or 2 songs or do a lead vocal should have been encouraged….who is going to play the background for years and years and never want to do more?? NO ONE..

AND she woudnt be where she is if it wasnt for the group…

AND i dont like the light she shed on her ex from 311…she made him out to be the bad guy…when she was probably living off him …..There was no need to go in great detail about her relationship with him…

Nicole appears to bite the hand that feeds her quite often….

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Jaye
October 9th, 2012 at 1:47 am
they really hyped up her last album, because i don’t even remember that album, never heard those songs on the radio. The world knew Melody was a better singer & wasn’t used properly in that group. Melody, given artistic freedom made a good mixtape that received positive reviews. I’m not buying this , something is so phony to me.

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Mi_cha_l
October 9th, 2012 at 12:17 pm
She is such a liar. Horrible. She didn’t gave any props for Melody and other girls. I think this whole interview is such a bull**it… ;/
Nicole to beznadziejna obłudna szmata. Koniec tematu…

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mj
October 9th, 2012 at 1:13 pm
So basically, she developed body issues from childhood due to being different from everyone around her and being treated differently for it. when she discovered her talent, and started singing, it got easier but instead of being a solo artist like she planned, she auditioned and became a part of a group, and after a few years, tried again to be a solo artist, and became part of a group, AGAIN. her body image issues came up out of the woodwork yet again, and her wanting to be separate from the group and be recognized as an individual, caused the turmoil between her and the group members from both Eden’s Crush and PCD.

the unfortunate part though, is because the management knew that as well. They knew what was going on the whole time. They knew when Nicole walked in for the PCD audition, that she was gonna be their spotlight hoe. so they used her, and used the other girls. Whatever singing talent the other girls had was ignored. Obviously Nicole was beautiful and talented, and the management knew that she wanted to be a solo star, and fulfilled that by building the group around her, but the girls caught on and realized what was going on and got pissed. the management though, did not care, because they had what they wanted. they had their money. this is part of what happened

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Azriel
October 12th, 2012 at 12:50 am
It’s sad to hear that. What I read before that when Robin signed the deal with Interscope, the dolls were salaried employees of Interscope. The record label managed their promotion, marketing, etc. So whatever the labels want the dolls must do since they signed the contract. I guess Robin either knows or it was hidden from her what’s going on and finally she caught on what was going on, so she took the new line up of PCD out of Interscope to not repeat the same mistake.

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R to the Diamonds star down to the C way
October 16th, 2012 at 9:28 am
nice

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lexi
October 21st, 2012 at 1:15 pm
i don’t what the girls name in in pcd, but she sang way better than nicole, i think it is ashley

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